I could hold on
Called to Higher, Fabulousity

Called to Higher

I could work full time in an office. I have plenty of skills and knowledge to get an exceptional high paying job.

I could go to school full time. I have a thirst and yearn for knowledge, just like my mother. I do well in school and I know I would get good grades.

I am a  Renaissance woman. The Reinvention Queen my friend Darshana calls me. I could do many things.

I could sit and relax and simply enjoy life. No one would argue with me. I just spent a whole year last year battling for my life, fighting Stage 3 Colon Cancer. [2016-2017]

I could do all those things.

I could hold on to who I am now and never grow, never experience challenge, or change.

I could do as this song says

I could hold on to who I am and never let You
Change me from the inside
And I could be safe, oh
I could be safe here in [his] arms and never leave home
Never let these walls down

But he has called me higher.

He has called me deeper.

I was saved from Cancer for a purpose.

I am in remission because I was meant for a higher purpose.

I am still here because my work is not done.

I’ll go where [he] will lead me

So let [his] mercy light the path before me

‘because [he] has called me higher
He has called me deeper
And I’ll go where [he] will lead me

I truly feel that I have been called to a higher purpose.
Everywhere I turn I keep hearing the message “I will go.” Usually, it ties to a song I hear in church or a talk I heard “I will go where you want me to go”.
This message has been resounding in my ether since I was pronounced in remission last September [2017]

Literally, every time I turn, this message keeps coming back up.

Tonight, I was looking for a completely different song and a completely different message.

I typed in “Hold it all together” and somehow ended up here.

Coin-key-dink? I don’t think so.

I clicked on the image and it was a plane with the message “I could hold on to who I am and never let you change me from the inside”

I leave for France for my Cancer Remission Celebration in just a few days.

I knew. I had to change my message.

When I listened to the song, I started crying. I felt such emotion about the words.

I almost took this blog and put it on my personal blog.

As I thought about it, I felt I needed to share it with you because it is the reason this blog, this book, this message, my keynotes, my speeches, my life.

I have been called to higher.

I know it.

With a fervent passion, I know it to be true.

My book has been out since May 2018. At the end of May 31st, I had sold 136 copies of my book.

I have had over 30+ message of people on FB or email or text, telling me how brave I was for writing it, how much it changed their life, how much it gave them hope.

I am truly humbled by all of this.

I am merely an instrument in his hands.

A person does not need to have a calling, an invitation to help someone or even good health to become an instrument in God’s hands.

We just need to be willing to journey.

We have to “let go and let God” as my mother always says.

I know he has called me- for you.

(tears are streaming down my face right now)

My heart is so full as I even write this message.

I have been so blessed to have Cancer, to overcome it and now it is my time to share the overcoming stories of my life with you to give you one thing that will carry you through…HOPE.

Hope in a better world.

Hope in overcoming.

Hope in enduring.

Hope in persevering.

Hope in life.

I often say, “If I can do it, you can too!” I mean it. Though I know not everyone resonates with that message, I feel it is usually because they are not ready to let go.

They are not ready to be changed, to be molded to be shaped in what they were meant to be- Fabulous.

I know in my heart of hearts that all I went through, I went through for you.

To learn and understand empathy.

That was the lesson of my life I needed to learn and embrace.

I fell into fabulous, for you.

I love you.

I really do.

Those who know me, know that I mean it, with ever fiber of my being.

I love you.

I am here for you.

And I’ll go where [he] will lead me…

Trisha Trixie Hunter-Merrill