I could hold on
Called to Higher, Fabulousity

Called to Higher

I could work full time in an office. I have plenty of skills and knowledge to get an exceptional high paying job.

I could go to school full time. I have a thirst and yearn for knowledge, just like my mother. I do well in school and I know I would get good grades.

I am a  Renaissance woman. The Reinvention Queen my friend Darshana calls me. I could do many things.

I could sit and relax and simply enjoy life. No one would argue with me. I just spent a whole year last year battling for my life, fighting Stage 3 Colon Cancer. [2016-2017]

I could do all those things.

I could hold on to who I am now and never grow, never experience challenge, or change.

I could do as this song says

I could hold on to who I am and never let You
Change me from the inside
And I could be safe, oh
I could be safe here in [his] arms and never leave home
Never let these walls down

But he has called me higher.

He has called me deeper.

I was saved from Cancer for a purpose.

I am in remission because I was meant for a higher purpose.

I am still here because my work is not done.

I’ll go where [he] will lead me

So let [his] mercy light the path before me

‘because [he] has called me higher
He has called me deeper
And I’ll go where [he] will lead me

I truly feel that I have been called to a higher purpose.
Everywhere I turn I keep hearing the message “I will go.” Usually, it ties to a song I hear in church or a talk I heard “I will go where you want me to go”.
This message has been resounding in my ether since I was pronounced in remission last September [2017]

Literally, every time I turn, this message keeps coming back up.

Tonight, I was looking for a completely different song and a completely different message.

I typed in “Hold it all together” and somehow ended up here.

Coin-key-dink? I don’t think so.

I clicked on the image and it was a plane with the message “I could hold on to who I am and never let you change me from the inside”

I leave for France for my Cancer Remission Celebration in just a few days.

I knew. I had to change my message.

When I listened to the song, I started crying. I felt such emotion about the words.

I almost took this blog and put it on my personal blog.

As I thought about it, I felt I needed to share it with you because it is the reason this blog, this book, this message, my keynotes, my speeches, my life.

I have been called to higher.

I know it.

With a fervent passion, I know it to be true.

My book has been out since May 2018. At the end of May 31st, I had sold 136 copies of my book.

I have had over 30+ message of people on FB or email or text, telling me how brave I was for writing it, how much it changed their life, how much it gave them hope.

I am truly humbled by all of this.

I am merely an instrument in his hands.

A person does not need to have a calling, an invitation to help someone or even good health to become an instrument in God’s hands.

We just need to be willing to journey.

We have to “let go and let God” as my mother always says.

I know he has called me- for you.

(tears are streaming down my face right now)

My heart is so full as I even write this message.

I have been so blessed to have Cancer, to overcome it and now it is my time to share the overcoming stories of my life with you to give you one thing that will carry you through…HOPE.

Hope in a better world.

Hope in overcoming.

Hope in enduring.

Hope in persevering.

Hope in life.

I often say, “If I can do it, you can too!” I mean it. Though I know not everyone resonates with that message, I feel it is usually because they are not ready to let go.

They are not ready to be changed, to be molded to be shaped in what they were meant to be- Fabulous.

I know in my heart of hearts that all I went through, I went through for you.

To learn and understand empathy.

That was the lesson of my life I needed to learn and embrace.

I fell into fabulous, for you.

I love you.

I really do.

Those who know me, know that I mean it, with ever fiber of my being.

I love you.

I am here for you.

And I’ll go where [he] will lead me…

Trisha Trixie Hunter-Merrill

Blog Post, Fabulous, Fabulousity, Letting go

Stop Holding On-Knowing When to Let go

Do you feel like you are barely holding on?

Do you feel like you are holding onto something or someone that you need to let go of?

Do you need to find a way to let go of your past?

Are you afraid to let go of things in your life you know aren’t serving you but you don’t know what else to do?

The therapists and the coaches and maybe even your friends keep telling you how simple it is, “Just Let Go” but to you, it is not that easy.

You want to let go of your toxic relationship with a family member, but they are family and maybe you still have to see them, or maybe you think your family will be mad at your for removing that person from your life. I am not denying that any of that might happen, because it could. But let me ask you this?

Aren’t you worth it?

Is it worth holding onto something that you know is not serving you or will serve you in its present state?

Maybe you are holding onto a job that you hate, the boss makes you feel like crap or makes you cry all the time. You think you need to stay here and be miserable because that is what society has told you. Guess what? That’s a lie. You are fully capable of getting and finding a job that suits, you that people don’t treat you like crap. If you want it, manifest it!

Why are you making yourself miserable every day? Did you know there is the perfect job with your name on it just waiting for you? Did you know there is the perfect person for you who will love you and you two will be whole together? Did you know that happiness for you is actually right around the corner?

Most likely if you are reading this, you or someone you know feels like they are barely holding on. Barely holding on to their job, barely holding on to a relationship, barely holding on to life. If you are barely holding on, did you know that you are already one step towards letting go?

Is it scary to let go? Hell yes!

Are you in the what if world? What if this happens or what if that happens? Your world will not change until you decide to change it. That means if you need to let go, if you are barely holding on, the universe has already given you the answer…let go and take chance on life.

How do you do that?


Yep, plan.

There are those of us like me, who can leap without a net, who can jump when we don’t know what is underneath us, who let’s go, not knowing what will happen next.

Then there are those who need to plan a bit more. I bet that is you. It’s ok to plan. Planning is a good thing. I plan, business models, business plans, task lists, I plan spontaneous time even! There are just certain things I don’t plan and those things I leap.

How do you plan to let go?

  • Write a pro/con list. Pros and cons of your current situation or relationship
  • Write a list of what is your ideal of this  situation or relationship
  • Compare the two- which one wins
  • Now start planning HOW you will take action towards that goal of letting go
  • Maybe save up money, look for new work on certain sites, update your resume, update postings, stop using a Credit card, etc to leave the job you hate
  • Maybe start talking to others about your relationship, a therapist or someone who can help you heal inside your heart, work backward to when you want to leave and list the steps you need to take to get there.
  • Start taking time for yourself. Many times I will find people are feeling things are toxic or they want to let go because they are overwhelmed. They might be doing too much and not taking enough “Self Love self-care” time for themselves.

I have given you three FREE worksheets out of my book Falling Into Fabulous: A Phoenix Rising for you to play around with. To buy my book for the rest of the workbook and my personal transformation story, buy my book on Amazon or other fine retailers.

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XoXo Trisha Trixie

“When given the option of being fabulous, why would you choose anything else?”

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