I could hold on
Called to Higher, Fabulousity

Called to Higher

I could work full time in an office. I have plenty of skills and knowledge to get an exceptional high paying job.

I could go to school full time. I have a thirst and yearn for knowledge, just like my mother. I do well in school and I know I would get good grades.

I am a  Renaissance woman. The Reinvention Queen my friend Darshana calls me. I could do many things.

I could sit and relax and simply enjoy life. No one would argue with me. I just spent a whole year last year battling for my life, fighting Stage 3 Colon Cancer. [2016-2017]

I could do all those things.

I could hold on to who I am now and never grow, never experience challenge, or change.

I could do as this song says

I could hold on to who I am and never let You
Change me from the inside
And I could be safe, oh
I could be safe here in [his] arms and never leave home
Never let these walls down

But he has called me higher.

He has called me deeper.

I was saved from Cancer for a purpose.

I am in remission because I was meant for a higher purpose.

I am still here because my work is not done.

I’ll go where [he] will lead me

So let [his] mercy light the path before me

‘because [he] has called me higher
He has called me deeper
And I’ll go where [he] will lead me

I truly feel that I have been called to a higher purpose.
Everywhere I turn I keep hearing the message “I will go.” Usually, it ties to a song I hear in church or a talk I heard “I will go where you want me to go”.
This message has been resounding in my ether since I was pronounced in remission last September [2017]

Literally, every time I turn, this message keeps coming back up.

Tonight, I was looking for a completely different song and a completely different message.

I typed in “Hold it all together” and somehow ended up here.

Coin-key-dink? I don’t think so.

I clicked on the image and it was a plane with the message “I could hold on to who I am and never let you change me from the inside”

I leave for France for my Cancer Remission Celebration in just a few days.

I knew. I had to change my message.

When I listened to the song, I started crying. I felt such emotion about the words.

I almost took this blog and put it on my personal blog.

As I thought about it, I felt I needed to share it with you because it is the reason this blog, this book, this message, my keynotes, my speeches, my life.

I have been called to higher.

I know it.

With a fervent passion, I know it to be true.

My book has been out since May 2018. At the end of May 31st, I had sold 136 copies of my book.

I have had over 30+ message of people on FB or email or text, telling me how brave I was for writing it, how much it changed their life, how much it gave them hope.

I am truly humbled by all of this.

I am merely an instrument in his hands.

A person does not need to have a calling, an invitation to help someone or even good health to become an instrument in God’s hands.

We just need to be willing to journey.

We have to “let go and let God” as my mother always says.

I know he has called me- for you.

(tears are streaming down my face right now)

My heart is so full as I even write this message.

I have been so blessed to have Cancer, to overcome it and now it is my time to share the overcoming stories of my life with you to give you one thing that will carry you through…HOPE.

Hope in a better world.

Hope in overcoming.

Hope in enduring.

Hope in persevering.

Hope in life.

I often say, “If I can do it, you can too!” I mean it. Though I know not everyone resonates with that message, I feel it is usually because they are not ready to let go.

They are not ready to be changed, to be molded to be shaped in what they were meant to be- Fabulous.

I know in my heart of hearts that all I went through, I went through for you.

To learn and understand empathy.

That was the lesson of my life I needed to learn and embrace.

I fell into fabulous, for you.

I love you.

I really do.

Those who know me, know that I mean it, with ever fiber of my being.

I love you.

I am here for you.

And I’ll go where [he] will lead me…

Trisha Trixie Hunter-Merrill

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Stop Holding On-Knowing When to Let go

Do you feel like you are barely holding on?

Do you feel like you are holding onto something or someone that you need to let go of?

Do you need to find a way to let go of your past?

Are you afraid to let go of things in your life you know aren’t serving you but you don’t know what else to do?

The therapists and the coaches and maybe even your friends keep telling you how simple it is, “Just Let Go” but to you, it is not that easy.

You want to let go of your toxic relationship with a family member, but they are family and maybe you still have to see them, or maybe you think your family will be mad at your for removing that person from your life. I am not denying that any of that might happen, because it could. But let me ask you this?

Aren’t you worth it?

Is it worth holding onto something that you know is not serving you or will serve you in its present state?

Maybe you are holding onto a job that you hate, the boss makes you feel like crap or makes you cry all the time. You think you need to stay here and be miserable because that is what society has told you. Guess what? That’s a lie. You are fully capable of getting and finding a job that suits, you that people don’t treat you like crap. If you want it, manifest it!

Why are you making yourself miserable every day? Did you know there is the perfect job with your name on it just waiting for you? Did you know there is the perfect person for you who will love you and you two will be whole together? Did you know that happiness for you is actually right around the corner?

Most likely if you are reading this, you or someone you know feels like they are barely holding on. Barely holding on to their job, barely holding on to a relationship, barely holding on to life. If you are barely holding on, did you know that you are already one step towards letting go?

Is it scary to let go? Hell yes!

Are you in the what if world? What if this happens or what if that happens? Your world will not change until you decide to change it. That means if you need to let go, if you are barely holding on, the universe has already given you the answer…let go and take chance on life.

How do you do that?


Yep, plan.

There are those of us like me, who can leap without a net, who can jump when we don’t know what is underneath us, who let’s go, not knowing what will happen next.

Then there are those who need to plan a bit more. I bet that is you. It’s ok to plan. Planning is a good thing. I plan, business models, business plans, task lists, I plan spontaneous time even! There are just certain things I don’t plan and those things I leap.

How do you plan to let go?

  • Write a pro/con list. Pros and cons of your current situation or relationship
  • Write a list of what is your ideal of this  situation or relationship
  • Compare the two- which one wins
  • Now start planning HOW you will take action towards that goal of letting go
  • Maybe save up money, look for new work on certain sites, update your resume, update postings, stop using a Credit card, etc to leave the job you hate
  • Maybe start talking to others about your relationship, a therapist or someone who can help you heal inside your heart, work backward to when you want to leave and list the steps you need to take to get there.
  • Start taking time for yourself. Many times I will find people are feeling things are toxic or they want to let go because they are overwhelmed. They might be doing too much and not taking enough “Self Love self-care” time for themselves.

I have given you three FREE worksheets out of my book Falling Into Fabulous: A Phoenix Rising for you to play around with. To buy my book for the rest of the workbook and my personal transformation story, buy my book on Amazon or other fine retailers.

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XoXo Trisha Trixie

“When given the option of being fabulous, why would you choose anything else?”

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Find Me in The Storm

In the storm is where you’ll find me.

That where I always seem to be.

I like to stand in the rain and hold my hands out and let the rain wash over me. I like to stop and feel the wind rushing over my face. I love to jump in the puddles. I have learned to love the storms as much as I love the peace when it is over.

Do you often find yourself in the storm? How do you think when you are in the storm? How do you feel? What emotions do you encounter in yourself? Do you find yourself aggravated, irritated, and upset because you are there? Or do you sit back and let the storm pass over you? Or perhaps it feels like something different to you and you don’t know what to do or how to react?

Sometimes, when we are in the storm, we can’t see past it. We see the chaos, the struggle, the troubles, the trails, the adversity, the obstacles. I want to try to open your eyes to the beauty of the storm, most especially when in the eye of the storm.

Instead of destruction, see a rebirth

Instead of chaos, see the calm

Instead of turbulence, see a ride

Instead of the thunder, listen for new insights

Instead of lightning, see the wonder of science

Mostly, though it all, remain in control.

How you handle the storm is way more important than the storm itself.

It doesn’t matter how you got there, it only matters what you do now that you are there.

In the Eye of the storm,  remain in control…



Seeing the beauty in the storm will change your outlook, your perspective. By changing your outlook, you then change how you deal with it. When you stop looking at yourself as a victim and instead start looking at yourself as a victor, your world will change inside your heart and out.

How do you find yourself in the storm? Is it maybe time to change the way you are looking at it? It is time to rise up and overcome the storms of your life?

To learn more about my storms and how I overcame them, buy my book Falling Into Fabulous: A Phoenix Rising on Amazon. Once you do, I would love a review to hear your thoughts.

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~XOXO Trisha Trixie

Hugs and Kisses and fairytale wishes

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Fabulous Doesn’t Happen Overnight

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A few friends were talking about all my upcoming events and such and one commented on how “all of a sudden”  I popped up over Social Media with my book and now I have the book tour, I am preparing for workshops and book signings and book readings and speaking gigs and more. the person next to us said, “Oh, I assure you, it did not happen overnight!” Then we all laughed and he replied, “Well, you make it look easy”

Funny thing is, I have heard that about my fabulous attitude as well. People always tell me how easy I make overcoming look. How simple I make it all sound. How streamlined I seem to have it and how I embody the term “You’ve Got This!”

Here is the reality behind all of that…

It didn’t happen overnight.

I have a friend who has known me since high school, Ed. I speak about him in my book a few times.  Ed could attest to all the hard times, all the trials, all the adversities I have been through and overcome. He could attest to watching me suffer through a meth addiction. He could attest to me struggling for custody of kids and the heartbreak it caused me and my marriages. He could attest to my issues with men, high school, and becoming an adult amidst all the craziness in my world. He could attest to this struggles in my home, work, and life. Ed could share my stories almost as easily as I probably could.

It wasn’t until 2009 that I started to wake up.

In 2011, I took the first online Soul Restoration course from Brave Girls.

That launched off a series of other transformational blogs, courses, groups, and people.

By 2014 I finally was on the right track. My life was bliss.

In 2015 we moved to Colorado.

In 2016, I was diagnosed with Colon Cancer.

I am not one who feels life is perfect.

I am not perfect.

I am perfect in my imperfections.

I accept and allow now.

I see the silver lining.

I have learned how to handle the rocks life throws at me.

I realize life isn’t pretty and perfect, but I am thankful to be here and I am a realist and optimist. I see life for what it is, but still able to hope for something better for myself, others and the world.

Don’t get down on yourself if you are not quite where you want to be.

Fabulous doesn’t happen overnight.

Things take time.

Overcoming is an art.

I fell into fabulous for you.

My story and my workbook were created with YOU in mind.

You have the option to choose.

In every moment, every minute, every day…we always have the option to choose fabulously, so…

“When given the option of being fabulous, why would you choose anything else?”

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You Have to Fall Out of Place to Fall Into Fabulous

My So-Called Life

Last October, I was diagnosed with Colon Cancer. To me, this was a big deal, yet at the same time no different than the other things in life I have had to overcome. The only difference is that this time the adversity and the trial was bigger than I was. It made me realize a few things that I wanted to share with you.

If I hadn’t had all the other adversities in my life I hadn’t had all the other child’s I don’t think that I would have been able to handle my cancer diagnosis. Think about it if the first time you ever have any trial in your life the trial is cancer how would it affect you what would go on in your head What would life be like what would your world be like I think you would just be overwhelmed and you wouldn’t know how to overcome it and you wouldn’t know how to think positive you wouldn’t know how to face life with a smile because you know that in the end, the storm passes the clouds disappear the sun in the rain rows come out and you can smile once again

Sometimes life has to fall out of place. Sometimes life has to bring you down.  sometimes I feel like life has to smack you in the face or pull the rug out from underneath you for you to look around and go well what’s going on here what happened why am I in this situation? that’s at least how I look at things I don’t get freaked down anymore when the rug gets pulled out for me underneath me I might have a momentary lapse of reason but don’t we all have that to me that’s just being human what I’m talking about is true real ability to overcome and to face life head-on to see Life as a wonderful experience to see Life as a beautiful lesson until seeing Life as a wonderful gift because it is a gift that’s why it’s called the present

You have to fall out a place to fall into fabulous

You need to see that life has its adversities

You need to see that life has its trials

You need to see that you are not in control

And you need to see that someone else knows everything that you’ve been going through and is there for you and yes it is Heavenly Father but that’s not the only way I believe I believe in a higher power I believe in a Buddhist spiritualist oddly Mormon kind of belief I call myself a Buddhist Mormon because I believe in so many aspirations of the Buddhist world but yet I still call myself a Christian in the Mormon faith because I truly believe that with everything being Christ-centered a Mormon is just as much a Christian as anybody else

I take that spirituality with me wherever I go no matter which way I look at it I still look at it. Life gave me this trial adversity issue problem whatever it may be for a specific reason then I look at what are those reasons why am I going through this not why didn’t happen to me although this time with the cancer I did say why did this happen to me because I’ve been through so much I wondered what other lesson do I have to learn here what lesson do I need someone like me who’s over How much what would I need to actually go through this lesson what is this trying to teach me what I found out that it was trying to teach me was to receive and to allow and that goes to one of my acronyms that I learned in my mindfulness training I also wanted to share with you

Have you ever heard of the acronym called RAIN? R.A.I.N

The R stands for Recognize

We need to recognize what’s going on we need to be aware we need to be present we need to see life as it is we need to be in our body and recognize what’s going on in our Bonnie we need to be present  outside of our body and find out what’s going on our body and what’s coming outside of it how are people treating us how are we allowing people to treat us and how are we handling those situations how is the world treating us and how are we handling those situations as well it’s all about recognizing being aware being present

The A stands for Allow

We need to allow those things to happen in our lives I think far too many times we fight off I don’t want that that doesn’t suit me that doesn’t fit in my plan right now I’m sorry I can’t do this world I’m sorry I can’t do this life and so we were treat and we don’t allow we hold everything inside of our bodies inside our hearts inside our thoughts and we don’t tell people how we really feel we don’t talk openly about the hurt that they may be causing us or perhaps even the hurt that life might be causing us we need to openly allow these things and say this is happening I allow it I may not like it but it’s still going to happen either way this is what I feel about process we may hate process but it’s still going to happen the laundry still needs to get done the dishes still need to get done stuff still has to happen if you’re not going to do those laundry or do the dishes yet by something like by paper plates or whatever and so you don’t have to do the dishes that’s fine but now that becomes your process buying paper plates for every time you don’t want to do the dishes see if you look around you. It’s all about perspective I talked about this a lot lately because I truly see that it really is about perspective it’s how you look at things do you look at life with a sad heart angry mad at the world why are these things happening to you how come you can’t get out of these circumstances why does this happen over and over? these are questions that I want you to explore and I want you to ask their self and then you only you will be able to answer those questions

The I stands for Investigate

this is the time when we really investigate what’s going on in our lives this is the time that we ask those questions why did this happen not why did this happen to me but why did this happen we ask herself questions like what do I have to learn from this lesson how can I apply this to my life how can I change this or how can I transform because I don’t want this anymore how can I release myself of toxic people and toxic things ask yourself over and over again one question of the other you know the questions that your body and your mind wants to be answered allow and investigate those questions to happen and then answer them honestly real rough raw authentic and wholeheartedly

The last one is N for Non-Identify

This is where we step outside of ourselves this is like asking her friend hey this is what I’m going through what do you think of this this is like asking ourselves those questions and looking back and seeing it again from a different perspective if you were the friend talking to you what guidance would you give to that friend now take that ask yourself those questions and give the guidance to yourself that you would be giving a friend that’s not identifying stepping outside of yourself and seeing things in a different light.

This is all part of falling into fabulous. You see as I said before sometimes you need to fall apart before you can fall into fabulous you need to be destroyed before you can be remade you need to be distracted before you can be reborn and you need to fall down to the depths of the ashes sometimes until you can rise up and be the Phoenix The Fabulous Phoenix that you were all meant to be I’m not the only Phoenix in this world I never claim to me and I never will I just think to be a phoenix because I have risen From the Ashes I have risen from the world that has given me nothing but trial and tribulation since I was 8 years old and I’m now 47 so count them that’s a lot of years to have to go through trial tribulation adversity loss and all the other many things that I’ve learned to overcome

I often say I know you can do it because I’ve done it too I don’t mean that to sound trite I seriously mean that I honestly feel that if I can overcome these things if I can overcome depression if I can overcome anxiety if I can overcome rape and molestation if I can overcome homelessness by can overcome loss of the custody of my children if I can overcome loss of businesses and loss of money if I can overcome cancer you can 2

Did you hear me? I said if I can do it you can too!

So are you finally ready to rise are you ready to rise up and overcome those things and obstacles toxic relationships that are in your life? if you’re ready to rise up and you’re ready to change go over to my page called The Risen and come join me in our group and I will help you to rise by my book and work with me in my workbook and let’s rise up together and show the world how fabulous you can really be.

Fabulous, Fabulousity, Fall Into Fabulous, Trisha Trixie

Take Your Eyes Off the Storm


We often look at life like it is a thunderous, raging storm and can only see the clouds and rain upon us. We all know when the storms are over, the sun will shine and the rainbows and promises will come back out. So, if we know that, then why do we only see the clouds and gray skies when we are in the middle of the storm?

We need to shift our focus, change our perspective and in essence, take our eyes off the storm and look past the horizon to the beauty the awaits you. Once the storm is over, we rarely even remember what that fight was even about. Think about those fights you had with a spouse or a friend from years ago. do you really recall every detail about what is was about and do you even really care. Most likely not.  To that point, when you think about the storms in your life, you most likely won’t remember them and you won’t even remember how you made it through and how you survived it. You will look back in wonder and amazement more than anything else surprised that you are still standing where you are today.

Once out of the storm and onto the other side, if and when you look back, you won’t even recognize yourself. It is like looking back in a mirror that disfigures yourself. You won’t be the same person as when you walked through that storm. You will be a new you, a new character, with new values, with new faith in yourself and perhaps a higher being. You will be a whole, brand new you.

That is what the storm is all about. Growth. Change. Challenge. Character Building.


Have you ever watched the trees in a storm?

How they sway to and fro? Sometimes their branches break and fall to the ground and sometimes leaves are scattered abroad, but how many trees do you notice are completely uprooted? I am not saying none, because, I have seen a few, but that is rare. Those ones maybe needed a complete “uprooting” , but in the most part, the storms make the trees dig deeper into the ground and take deeper roots and become stronger so they can withstand anything.

Plus, there are some things you never learn in life is life is all roses and sunshine. You must learn them in a storm.


You build character. This teaches me how to resolve challenges during this time. I learn how to deal with conflict. I learn how to handle conflict resolution. I take stock during this time and take a deep, deep dive look within. I honestly don’t think many people can do this. I believe I am a quite rare individual who has the capacity to do this.

You learn to stand on your own two feet. Oft times this is where I find out who my friends are and who they aren’t. I learn what I can handle alone and what I can’t. I learn when I need to ask for help.

You build a testimony. I learn so much more about myself and the world during these times.

You build your faith. I’m not just talking about in a higher power here either. I am talking about faith in others, faith in yourselves.

You may realize a defining moment during this time in your life. Often this time in your life when things change, you pivot, you grow, you turn your life around. This is that one time,t hat “moment” that spun everything on a dime and your whole life changed. Maybe this is when you finally “woke up”.

You will grow. All of this comes down to the fact that you will grow. Science says we stop growing after adulthood. In size…yes. In everything else…we continue to grow in character, strength, values, nurture, nature, knowledge, acceptance, love, and the list goes on.

As I have said earlier and for those who know me, I face my storms head on. I don’t cower or hide under the covers. Do I want to? HELL YEAH. I get scared too. I actually don’t like conflict either but I learned a very long time ago that hiding gets me nowhere. I am still going to have to do that math problem I don’t want to do, or face that person who I don’t want to face, or deal with that trial I don’t want to deal with. I learned that if I am going to have to face it anyway, I might as well just get it over with.

When I started being the one to face my fears first and jumping into the lions den, I also learned I had the better advantage. I had the upper hand. I was prepared, I was ready to fight and I had all the tools I needed to do so. It didn’t mean the fight wasn’t hard, it still was hard, but in the end, one way or the other I came out victorious, even if I lost the fight, because I gained what it taught me!

Did you catch that?



This is important for to share with you because I think that many people think that winning the battles are all about truly winning those battles and they are not. It is about what you learn about yourself going through those storms, going through those battles and how you come out on the other side.

You ARE fabulous!

You have always BEEN fabulous.

My message is more than the “You are enough” story. That message is great, but I want to share more than that. Yes you are enough. You already were enough. You were fabulous from the beginning. You were enough from the beginning. We all were.

However, ever a piece of metal is only a piece of metal until is is forged in fire and the master works it and then it becomes a beautiful blade of steel that become a magnificent sword for a knight to yield.

We must go through the storms of life to learn from these trials and to grow. We must look to the horizon and see the beauty that awaits us on the other side and know that we can get through these trials that we encounter and know that we can do it, we can face it together.

We will be strong.

We will be faithful.

We will overcome.

We will survivors.

We will be victorious.

We will be warriors for our future!


Trisha Trixie






Not a Tear Was Wasted

Have you cried many nights, in your turmoil, adversity and trials?

Have you wondered if all those tears were worth it?

Did the tears make anything better?

Do you wonder, if all those tears were wasted?

They were not.

Not a tear was wasted.

The Lord, heard every cry and he counted every tear.

Those tears were all consumed by the love of our Heavenly Father.

I cried many tears too.

I cried until I thought I was drowning in my tears.

I cried until thought there was no way I could cry anymore.

I cried in so much anguish asking, yearning, wishing, pleading, dear lord, why aren’t you answering me??

But you know what….?

He WAS answering me. In HIS way.

He was refining me.

He was building me up.

He was making me stronger.

He is making you stronger too.

I promise you, not a tear you cry is being wasted.

He hears your cries.

He knows why each of those drops is being cried.

Each of those tears has a purpose.

You may not see it now.

I understand.

I didn’t see it at first.

But I had faith.

I need you to have faith.

Faith in fabulous.

Those tears will set  you free.

Don’t be afraid to cry.

Let them roll.

Let’s them pour out of you.

They each have a purpose.

Their purpose is to make you fabulous.

More fabulous than you already are.

Fabulous tears for a fabulous you.


Painting Beauty in the Ashes

So you lost your home?

You lost your business?

You lost your children?

You lost your car?

You lived on the street?

You had your heart broke?

You have been abused?

Has your dignity been stolen?

Has your integrity been compromised?

Do you feel like everything is crumbling down around you?

Do you feel like your life is going up in flames?


Then let it.

Let the fires burn.

Let everything go.

Let the abusers try to tear you down.

Let them take your business.

Let them take your home.

Let them break your heart.

Let them take it all, ruin it all, demolish it…ALL.

The more the fires burn, the more you have a chance to make anew.

There were times in my life, I thought so much had been destroyed, that nothing else could be taken, and then something would happen, and more was taken to the point of no return, I really DID hit rock bottom. I looked at my life and saw nothing but ashes, soot, blackness, everything demolished.

And then, I saw things no one else could see…

I saw hope.

I saw faith.

I saw courage.

I saw determination.

I saw fearlessness.

I saw tolerance.

I saw perseverance.

I saw beauty in the ashes.

I became a Phoenix and you can too.

Trust in the process.

We all fall down.

Falling is NOT a bad thing.

Falling allows us the chance to look up.

Allow yourself to fall.

Fall on your knees.

Fall into fabulous.

It will all be okay.



Knees and Answers

“So when you’re on your knees and answers seem so far away
You’re not alone, stop holding on and just be held.”

In the song that inspired my book it says there are times we are on our knees and the answers seem so far away. There were MANY, and I mean MANY times I felt this whn I was fighting for custody of my children. I fought since the boys were little, 6/7 years old and I kept fighting until they were in their teen years. I kept crying out to Heavenly Father “Why? Why can’t I have them. I have a stable home, I make good money. My life is together. Why can’t this be? ” I kept throwing money at the problem thinking that would help. I kept searching and yearning for answers in the temporal world. Yet, still the answer in the courts was always “No” I would go back to prayer and cry out again “Why?”

The answers seemed so far away for me and I just couldn’t understand. All i wanted was to be held. To be held by someone, anyone, but even then, my spouse at the time, was not enough.

I came upon scripture after scripture to come to Heavenly Father with a Broken Heart and a Contrite Spirit and I poured myself unto him on my knees. I think at one time I was in prayer for about 3 hours. My knees were killing me and I ended up lying on the floor in a puddle of tears to a point of sobbing. You know that crying that you are barely breathing anymore? I felt defeated. I just couldn’t’ hold on anymore. I gave in. I let go.

I stopped holding on.

It was in that moment, I felt something like a blanket of love come over me.

I can’t explain anymore than to say, that in the moment I finally let go, I was held. It was as if Heavenly Father actually put his arms around me and held me in his embrace as if to say, “I’ve got you.”

When we let go and let God, things begin to move to shift.

Stop holding on and be held.



Be Held Inspiration

The inspiration behind this book is from the song Be Held by Casting Crowns. I was listening to this one day driving home from seeing my family in New Mexico. I had heard this song many times but for some reason certain words of this song really jumped out on me.

Be Held by Casting Crowns

Hold it all together (I am holding on)
Everybody needs you strong (I will be strong)
But life hits you out of nowhere (often when I’m not expecting it)
And barely leaves you holding on (Hold to the iron rod as tight as you can)

And when you’re tired of fighting (Sometimes I get so tired)
Chained by your control
There’s freedom in surrender (I surrender all)
Lay it down and let it go ( I will let go and let God)

So when you’re on your knees and answers seem so far away
You’re not alone, stop holding on and just be held

Your world’s not falling apart, it’s falling into place

(Your not just falling into place, you are falling into fabulous)

I’m on the throne, stop holding on and just be held
Just be held, just be held (Be Held and Be Fabulous)

If your eyes are on the storm
You’ll wonder if I love you still (I know I am loved)
But if your eyes are on the cross
You’ll know I always have and I always will (I know, I know)

And not a tear is wasted (I know my tears are tears of growth, overcoming and perserverence)
In time, you’ll understand
I’m painting beauty with the ashes (Paint me into something beautiful, Let me rise glorious, victorious, from the ashes of my past and I will rise into the Phoenix that I am)
Your life is in My hands

So when you’re on your knees and answers seem so far away
You’re not alone, stop holding on and just be held

Your world’s not falling apart, it’s falling into place

(Your not just falling into place, you are falling into fabulous)

I’m on the throne, stop holding on and just be held
Just be held, just be held

Lift your hands, lift your eyes
In the storm is where you’ll find Me
And where you are, I’ll hold your heart
I’ll hold your heart
Come to Me, find your rest
In the arms of the God who won’t let go

So when you’re on your knees and answers seem so far away
You’re not alone, stop holding on and just be held

Your world’s not falling apart, it’s falling into place

(Your not just falling into place, you are falling into fabulous)

I’m on the throne, stop holding on and just be held (stop holding on and just be held)
Just be held, just be held, just be held, just be held